As I think about saints I feel the potential energy - the more you deprive your body the higher you fly. You start from the Level 1 - just get rid of all small shit. The problem on Level 1 is that when you try to fight in this way, your mind gets fucked up. You are fucking weak and you behave as a drug addict. You are just fucking stuck with your regular habits. If you feel it, then congratulations, you have arrived to the Level 2. Here you are stronger but angrier. I do not know what Level 3 might be. Probably depression with heavy contemplation. But you have to move on and maybe, maybe ... you can tune up yourself to reach a positive state. But before that do not forget that you suck, fucking human.